Friendship 4ever ??? I don't think so ...

Do u treat me as your friend ??? I don't think so. If u do treat me as your friend, why u don't allow me to join u all for the interview ? Why ? Who can answer me ? All the days passes, who help u all ? I 'm the person always lend u a hand but now u all just give me shit . It's really unfair. Why u all trat me like this ??? Haiz ! First, may be u thought that I don't like to be together and talk with u but i don't want to talk much . It's my behaviour. You should have knew it. We have been be friends for so many years and now u did this to me. How dare u ? I 'm so disappoint with all of u . Everyone I have treated them well, good and so on but do they appreciate me ? They don't even feel to thank me but just to use me. God , u have to help me . At least let them felt that I 'm still living in this small world and don't treat me like this as I 'm also a human being. Everytime u need my help, such as borrow books or teach u how to write something, I'm the one whom help u but now when I really need helps, do u all realise me ? In this world, where can I find my real friendship ? I'm now 14 years old and I can't meet my true friend instead of meeting those who treated me like a prisoner or animail, that is if u need me, u will be very friendly with me and if not, u just kick me far away. I know that I 'm not as smart as all of u. So, now I would study smarter and work harder that one day I can be a successful woman all of u would beg for me !!!