Again...

I dreamed of someone again. This person suddenly reacted so differently to me until I couldn't react at the same time. What if this really happen? Will I be brave enough to reject or to begin everything again? So many questions surrounding me. Of course, there are conversations between us. As usual, I still couldn't trust the words given by this person. What if we really meet later on? Can I answer you or take up my first step to speak with you? I'm confused and I'm not sure. Looking from the pictures, I know you're far so good and better. I don't wish to contact you right now to express my thoughts because I believe that we'll meet someday. We did make a promise right? Whenever I go, you'll be with me. Even though it's far, it could still be somewhere around, it's either closer or just in front. All the best for you. Tell me more about yourself till we really meet face to face. I'll let the time answer for me. Gambatte :)

How are you?

I had some news regarding someone, my old friend. It's been 5 years we haven't meet each other. How are you now? Frankly say, I do admit I miss you so much, especially our friendship. How would it be now if I tell u the truth last time? The history would not be the same. Perhaps sweeter or worse than now. Sometimes, I do wonder what if I accidentally meet you here? How would I react? Will I pretend not to know you? Or will I be the first person to call your name? Will you recognise me? Will you remember me? Will you still know my name? There's a lot of questions wandering in my mind. How do you do now? Everything ok? Better? I believe in fate and I know that we will meet someday when the timing is correct. It's close enough yet too far. Do u feel the same? Do u think the same thing as I am thinking now? From the picture, you changed a lot. Hopefully you are as bubbly as usual, the one I know for years. All the best for you. I will pray for you with the best wishes. Sometimes when I'm stress in handling events but when I remember your words that it's not how much I joined for events, it's the journey or the experience that counts. Even until today, I still believe that's the best motivating quote for me. Thank you for bringing me up and making me a stronger person. I would like to thank you one day. 😊

PEOPLE DO CHANGE...

I notice that the changes in people are so scary. They can change just in a blink of an eye. They change because of the desire to do something. They can still cover the changes with lies. It is so obvious that I could see it myself. I do not mind if you do so. Just be aware that we are the people surrounding you. We can feel it.

That was just a group discussion. I knew that both of them are the greatest, of course you can still sit beside them. But do mind that there are still people in the same group with you, doing the same discussion. We can feel how you treat them. Since this is a discussion, it should be a discussion environment with everyone sitting in a round shape where everyone can see each other. It should not be you the one blocking the others purposely. There are manners in a real discussion, the voice projections, the gesture in conducting a discussion and the others. You are such a person who only care for yourself.

I'm trying to ignore this. I'm doing my part. I'm working harder with all the efforts I could provide in doing my task. This is a real life. I admit that it could be cruel. I understood the life cycle. I accept it.