A simple sum up of July~

It's a month full of sorrow and happiness for me. Sorrow for certain reason and happiness for certain reason too. I'm too lame. Haha~ No doubt for it. There's still a few months left for me to struggle since I'm lazy like a pig just like someone who called me once. Lol. I admit now. A week to go and I will get it. Wakaka...

I'm forgetting the past. Let's meet as a new friend. Hi, how are u? My name is CHEW ANN PHIN. Nice to meet you here.

Do forgive what I have to to you all too but please don't mind if you all can change as well as I do. I 'll certainly appreciate it very much. Although my condition is the same as the others. NO BEST FRIEND. I know some of my seniors do so for the past few years when they're taking SPM. Life is that. Reality comes first.

LET BEGONE BY BEGONE. Sorry for everything if I hurt any of you. I really hope you all will forgive me too. Let's smile to the world. There's still a long journey for me to discover the wonderful world. Sweet and sour will sum up my whole journey of my own experience in the real life.

HAVE A NICE DAYS!!!

From: Apple// CHEW ANN PHIN


RAINBOW...
I KNOW WHERE ARE YOU...
I'M HEADING TOWARDS YOU...
BUT...
PLEASE WAIT FOR ME...
TO SMILE...
LOVE...

You~

I had a dream last previous night. I dreamt of someone. In the dream, the person wears a cap and waving to me. I thought it was just a simple goodbye because the person waved to me as usual and even gave me a warm sweet smile but it wasn't what I had thought. The person shifted to New Zealand. I knew it when another person told me. During that time, I was really sad but nothing I can do because the person took the flight.

SAYONARA~

It was a dream. It's just like leaving someone with a broken heart. I can feel it but I do hope this won't happen even when we meet again.

Friday~

It is Friday again. It's super duper boring because I'm too free. Wakakazzz.. Piano with song of sunny day from Jay Chou. I love it so much. Don't ask me why as I also don't know. Lol. I wrote a sms but I just don't know want to reply her or not. Forget it.

Piano.

Homework.

TV.

Jog? SEE IF I'M LAZY OR HARDWORKING.

Sleep.

NICE WEEKDAY BUT BORING...

Peace~

Hi! Today, my emosional is quite stable. I'm now as a freezer who freeze myself from socialising with them unless some of my good friends. I know what I did yesterday. I also know what they talked about me. Now, I deactive my facebook to avoid viewing those gossiping continuosly. I'm sicked and bored of it. I think you should know why I did that.

LET BEGONE BY BEGONE. I'm trying. This is my second time facing this condition. I told it to my family. They said nevermind and just ignore them. Let them to be invisible rather than visible. That's really a good idea. I love it. Thanks to my dear family and some of my friends who support me fully. I'm not XIAO QI but just feel very DISSAPOINT with their attitude. Friends for almost 13 years but they did not appreciate the valuable friendship. So,it's ok.

I can't find my true best friend and when I'm in out station, I can find one. There's not much sweet momory with them in Kuala Krai. Nevermind.

DEAR ANN PHIN, do cheer up every single second. We'll at your side no matter what's going to happen. That's our words. Thanks.

Now, I'm trying to live through my own life style with only good values. I don't wish to immitate others but just being myself. Give me a single smile when you meet me. I'm glad to see it.



SMILE AS THE GREATEST MEDICINE IN MY LIFE...
I SMILE TO THE WORLD...
AND SO IS THE WORLD...
CAN I BE THE SHINNING STAR???
HAHA~ WUHOO~ LALALA~
=)

Is this call friends?

This is the second time I met this condition. I wonder why everyone like this. Why do they need to bouycott me? Did I do any wrong? A piece of time table can turn our friendship in shit. Why can't you all just treat me like normal. If you need help, I do my best to you all but now you all return me with shits. What the hell is the world doing?

Follow up with my situation. I'm not xiao qi but you all make me to be angry.

I saw it clearly was a time table. When I ask you all, all of you cooperate with each other and say ask her la. I ask also no use. You all bouycott me and say don't know. So what? Then I asked in her in an annoy way and they just gave me a coppy. A time table. A simple paper. Why can't you all just give me? Is is so secret? I take already then will become what? NOT ENOUGH PAPER. Such a useless reason to me. Why don't you all just say I DON'T WANT LET U KNOW. So easy.



A timetable only...
COMPLICATED ISSUE...

Well done again~

Glad to know that they won again. They 're going to represent Kelantan. Wow... Congratulation. xd...


FORGET IT...
MOVE FORWARD BUT NOT BACKWARD.
AM TYRYING...
BLESS ME...

Well done!

Well done, dear choir team. All of you did it well.

Lolzzzxxx...

Look at the sky...
My answers are there...

Today, what should I write? Yesterday, I went swimming with my friends. Haha~ I love swimming. I like the coolness of the water, especially during the hot sun. I could still remember the time I went to Pulau Redang by a school trip. We went snorkelling. We saw the beautiful corals and fish swimming freely all the time. I touch the sands. They are just white. When could I still go there with my friends from all states? GUYS AND GIRLS, I HOPE TO MEET YOU ALL... You are damn active, espcially the Penang guy and Malacca girl.

Flash back...

I remember how we meet and talk. I appreciate the momment. JUN JIA, did you know that? Wakakazzz. If you see this, smile to me when we meet in KL if we have such golden opportunity.

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Lie to me?

You're such a big liar. Finally, I know who are you. Tell me this but you then tend to do that. Go ahead. Over acting from time to time. No one likes you. xd~

She's always fine even alone!

I finally go through the hard time without any help. I'm independent. No consolling, no sweet words and so on. I'm better right now. Cheer forher! haha!!!

Sad~

I fail my grade 8 piano exam. I cried. The sky cried with me too. Haiz... Dad asks me to retake it. Haiz... I am very sad. No mood for me the whole day.


T_T

T_T

T_T

National Service???

National Service (NS) is now currently a hot issue. Everyone is worrying about their names whether they are the shortlisted or not. So, am I. Haha. I'm no scared but I just hope to get far places other than Kelantan. I want to expose to new things BUT I'm not the shortlisted. I'm quite happy. Almost all my friends got it.

MAAF, XXXXXX-XX-XXXX, anda tidak terpilih untuk menyertai PLKN siri ke 9/2012.

Saw it? Haha. I'm safe. Dear brothers, I did not get it. Although I'm not shortlisted, it doesn't mean that I will become fatter because I 'm already slim. Haha. Just in my opinion. Lolxxxzzz. Don't laugh at me.

I don't get PLKN. So what? Did you all need to say me? Below are the conversations that hurt and boom people....

X: I will help you to get PLKN.

Y: If u help me, I will help R too.

R: Go ahead.

Y: Why don't you say ANN PHIN?

Me: Cheh, get then get la. It's not a big deal. If I get, then I go. Easy job!

Z: Did you all listen to what ANN PHIN said?

I'm sigh to listen to their talk. Friends for so many years but still redo the same thing. I'm not unsastifed with them but before you all speak out, please look around the people around you first. I'm nothing but I just shocked to see you girls ' talking. It's just like I'm the apple on a brick and thousands of arrows are coming towards me.

Today, they gossip. I know they aren't talking about me but please don't do that. Lolxxxzzz.

I'm sick. I have sore throat. Save my voice. I'm slightly fever. I HATE SICK. No one likes it too.

Today, is the audition of choir. Did you all do well? I hope so. Try to do the best to win. I went to a talk of MORAL.The teachers are super duper good. I like them very much. Their techniques are the best.

Night, everyone in the world. I'm tired and sicked. Have a fond dream! =)

Aloha~

Talk back about my trial. Now, it change to august 8th. Haiz... Why is it so early? Other states are just far away from their trial except KELANTAN. Lolxxxzzz...

I am here to hope that those who don't know the real reason I quite choir please don't simply talk. I know talking is without insurance but please don't hurt me. Their words are like the tiny thorns that kept on pickling my heart. It's broken and fragile. HAPPY? SASTIFIED?

It's sad to leave choir but I had no choice. I know I trained them since January but reality is the choice. I know what I am doing. Haha~ Change topic.

I HATE BEING AN EMO GAL...

I love ON THE FLOOR... So nice.

Sand....

Just look at the sands, it glitters and make me awake. "ALL THAT GLITTERS IS NOT GOLD". What a nice phrase! But who does know and understand it deeply? I? You? They? We? He? She? Or even it? It means all that not everything that looks precious is precious. So, everything isn't perfect as what we thought. A blank paper will always consists a tiny black dot if we see it clearly. No matter how perfect the person is, he or she sometimes will also make a simple mistake. This is the fact we can't deny.

p/s: SPOT THE GLITTERING SANDS~

Wuhaa~ BLEK... ==

I'm right~

Today, my Additional Mathematics teacher, Mr Siva told us that trial exam is held in august. I'm totally shocked. It's too early. Luckily, I quite from choir already. I'm such a good girl as I listen to my dad's advice. Haha~ Praising myself. Wuhaa...

Right~


I 'm now forgetting the past, trying to face the future right now. Just asume I lost my memory and begin with a new chapter of life. Aza-aza fighting!!!


Go...go...go...

Unbelievable...

Today, the whole day I'm fully emo. Haha... I don't think anyone about it because I try hard not to let them see. Finally, I brave up myself to meet the teachers and I told them I want to quite. They were totally shocked to hear my words. I had no choice but I need to put more effort on other things. The teachers were speechless as they know they must respect my words but they do ask me to think wisely. After thinking, I decide the same thing and I really didn't appear this evening.

I read a nice article. It's just same as what my mind is thinking on right now. LOOSING ANYTHING RIGHT NOW IS EQUAL TO GAINING ANYTHING AT THE SAME TIME TOO. Is this nice? Ya, I think so. This is the sentence what I have written last few posts. Haha...

Somebody is a fool. Sombody thought they are smart enough to fool a person but they are actually not. It's happy when you success to fool the person. The person is hurt deeply when someone told them they did not do so. What is the world doing? Is it just rotating and produce such fool people to fool the innocents? UNFAIR... Somebody is ungrateful although someone helps them a lot by fooling someone. HAIZ...

EVERYTHING CHANGES, I CHANGE, YOU CHANGE, WE CHANGE, THEY CHANGE...


Tomorrow need to be at school at 7am. It's so early. During this time, as usual, I'm just awaken up. What is the school doing? Morning test does not need to start so early. I really miss the assembly time. I want to go there to listen what the teachers talk, what the students do and breathe the fresh cool air. No such chance already.

Someone is so busy-body. Someone keeps on going to my class and try to spy on sombody what are they doing. Someone is too free until gossip somebody that somebody is tension or wat wat wat. Someone enters my class to see somebody how to spend time. Arrgh.. What is the Earth going on?


We can't change the reality. I just hope I do my part well by not hurting people around me. I'm quiet and as cool as ice cube just because of this simple reason. Wakakazzz... Great job!!!

Decision...

I have been thinking of this matter since in the begining of the year. It is always making me headache. Haha... Now, I eventually made up my mind. I choose to xxxxx. Lolzzzxxx. It's my own decision being suport by my family and the others. After this, I will be free. I will not be hate or annoy by someone in it. They will not show me their colours of faces. I'm happy and I no need to scold them for being indisipline. Haha~


BUT....


MY SPIRIT WILL ALWAYS BE WITH YOU ALL!!!


GO FOR IT...


ME TOO!!!

SHARE~

Change...

I realised this happen for a long period. Now, it reoccur. Gossip is simple among girls but I really hate it. It now happened to me. OMG... How sad am I until some people don't even trust me. TRUST is demolished among us. I know it will happen and it really happening now.

Gossip about me? So what? Maybe all people around me will think I'm tension but I 'm not. TENSION does not exist on me. Anyone trust me? Please do so. People are from all walks of lives. I can't blame them for gossiping me in such way. I know who treat me well, who gossip me, who hate me deeply and so on. I know what's going on but I try not to care so much because if anything happen on me, I'm alone with no helper. I don't wish to meet enemies all the time, whenever I go and whenever I am. Why don't the world be peaceful?

Everyone say I change. Yes, I change for my own personal reason. Should I tell you all about this? Sure no. This is my business. How many time should I say? MIND YOUR BUSINESS FIRST BEFORE OTHERS. This is so easy and you all can't even obey it for the whole life time. I don't even mind your business. I'm not tense.

NO PARTY, NO HIGH-TEA, NO OUTING... Is this also call as tension? How come this unique Earth got such people? I 'm weird but please don't say I'm tension. I'm just doing my things. I'm busy for a certain period and I just use the time to relax myself. Maybe you all think that party is relax but to me, it's so noisy and hectic. I'm those who fonds of peaceful and harmony. Good music shades my life. PLEASE DON'T STOP THE MUSIC. STOP YOUR BIG FAT MOUTH...

You told me about it. I appreciate your kindness but don't let me feel dissapoint of your words.

Choir Team~

Sorry for scolding all my dear choir team but I have no choice. I want the whole choir team to be the best. We aim for champion not loosing. So, please be serious during the training. Disipline is the basis, the foundation upon all success, including choir. Without disipline, the whole choir will be ruin. I don't wish to see the choir team to have a bad reputation. Though we're new, just be patient and step on pave by pave, and i'm sure we can do well. Every time after scolding, i'm hurt. I know I have ruin all of you's mood or anything but once again please do for the choir.

I'm aiming for the best...

Do you know???

Rush~

Today is my first day to be so rushing. My school finished at 2.50pm. Then, addtional class in school began at 3.30pm to 5.30 pm for the subject of Biology and Chemistry.

Mad fellow~

You are a mad fellow, a mad guy. Blek~ So what? Don't think you are very good or what. You are actually the same like everyone is. Stop being a childish person who keeps on pretending to be a mature person. Frankly, you are not mature but a kid. Haha~ No one likes your behavior. So, am I. I did not tell bad things. So, think before you speak out. Kiddy... Someone is better than you. Having a friend like you is my wrong fate but I have no choice. Lol...zzz


SHUT UP YOUR BIG FAT MOUTH!!!

Random~

Random is random. Lolzzzxxx. I encounter this word many times, either in Additional Mathematic, Mathematic, Physic and so on. Today, I met my friend from the UM camp in Facebook. We chat for a while. Then, I went to tuition. He's the first guy who is my group who I knew through ice-breaking. During the camp, I actually thought he was same age as me and I really wanted to ask him his age but I was not dare. Today, I asked him. He told me he is 16. Haha... He's slightly younger than me. Nevermind, it's still nice to meet him, this cute brother.

Below is our team picture when playing games...