Hey, I'm back again. It's been a long time for me not blogging. Apologize to all the readers. I was super busy for the last semester as I was holding a number of posts busy handling all kinds of events be it local or international level.
Of course, throughout the whole semester, I faced a lot of obstacles, tried hard to figure the best solutions to settle all those sudden popped up issues. Sometimes, I even felt to let go of everything. I felt the tiredness and also the feeling of getting fed up. Each time, there were lots of meetings, always clashing to each others. It was hard for me to choose which meeting to attend. I could only choose the one, which was more important to attend and what kind of meeting was it. They even blamed me for not giving commitment. Yes, everyone could said that but if you were standing at my side, you could also felt what I was feeling. It's not about the greedy me competing to hold many posts, it's because I was given the trust to hold such posts. The moment when you were being hurt by the people surrounding you, you no longer could feel the sense of belonging.
Taking up so many posts at the same time was a huge burden. I admit that I'm the perfectionist as I don't wish to ruin my name. Even during the event's time, there were rumours posting in the confession. Obviously, I was quite down at the moment. Can you imagine for all my events, I chose people whom I trust and can give full commitment. Suddenly, there were people accusing me of getting the post because they dislike the society. I was given the trust because they believe on my ability to handle the first time international level event. This was not an easy one. I was not known until my junior told me that. I discussed this issue with my senior and he advised me not to believe those things. People might easy create issue because of jealousy or because they do not know anything but wished to relate all those unrelated things together. I was the innocent victim. The feeling was so down to me. I just wanted to stop everything at that time. Even student representative council vice president also comfort me. Look, I'm indeed the victim.
Things go around and time flies. I was very tired in handling another camp. It was my first time of taking such department. Of course, strong mentality and physical are needed. I was working hard at all time. If there was no bonding, how could they do things? To me, as what I was guided by those leaders, the bonding among the secretariats are very important. I feel the same too. Without bonding, the secretariat members would not care much or less about the others thing. They would only do the things they were assigned to. Sometimes, even though we are not involved in that department, if people ask for help, we should automatically offer our sincere help. I don't care whether you like it or not, whoever under me should know that I always together as a team. I want my team to stay unite at all time no matter what had happened. It's my first time to build up a team with great bonding. To break the ice, it's not impossible, it's the willingness of doing it.
It was a hard time for me during the last semester. Making decisions here and there. Sometimes, I made the correct choice, sometimes the other way round. I joined events not because I'm greedy for the posts but because of the passion of learning. I wish to learn and gain the experience that I can't get from the text books or lecture notes. Organising events allow me to learn various soft skill. I learn the way of mingling with people, the way of seeking help from the others when I was truly had no ideas at all. Of course, at certain moment, I was not in a good mood. When I'm totally down, I was lazy to talk with people. It gives me a sense that I'm fed up of everything.
I have great people surrounding me. Their encouragements and helps really assist me a lot. I'm happy to have great friends from the previous events I joined, giving me lots of infinite help, which reduce my burden. Everything is the first time of handling things. At least I have people to turn up willing to listen to my grumbling.
The road along my journey are still very long. I'm just at the first half of the beginning only. Feeling positive are the only cure to survive. WE CHOOSE THE PATH, SO WE HAVE THE AUTHORITY TO WALK THE BEST PATH...
